Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Make it or take it

Well I bet all my money on MDR to go up. It goes to 20 I am done working it goes to 5 I am broke and it will be time for sepuku. I am tired it is in Gods hand now or at least that's who I will blame lol

Sunday, April 13, 2008

Level 1

Well got to level one. Last 40 days have made 25 percent on the stock market day trading. Life should almost too easy but it is not. You can plan everything except your wife developing two egg size tumors in the uterous shit is out of control. Achieve goals live in one of the toughest environments on the planet for three years plan achieve goals and then this shit. She was included in every plan I had for the future and now it is like wtf why? The woman I have loved the most in my life and the chance she could be gone. I planned on till death do we part but not this soon for god's sake. Hopefully I have the guts to commit Sepucu if anything happens. I'd rather go out Romeo and Juliet style and chill with her in the afterlife.
Saving the loot was still the best thing though because i have the ability to pay for the operation and be there with her when it happens. I have Ritz Carlton reservations and have told them to put 20 bouquets of flowers in the room with a heart shape of rose petals on the bed. They are opening the resteraunt early so that we can sit down with her famility and eat some good food and relax. I also have the ability to be with her to the end (if it turns out bad) without worrying about little bullshit that doesn't matter, just worrying about Love.

Thursday, October 04, 2007

Close to the first step

October 5th already Can't really believe I almost made it but at the same time when you make a decision to do something you just have to stick with it as Eminem Says "Till I collapse" "even though my collar bones crushed" Just keep going. I just keep reminding myself what I am doing and why I am doing it. I also try to remember what it was like to not have anything. I look at the people around me and try to help them to achieve what they want in life as well. I still see over and over in people the inate ability to backstab themselves. People realize yes it does feel good to just say f it and quit but it only feels good for a second and then it is back to same old same old. It is like you don't need enemies the majority of people seem to be their own worst enemy when it comes to goals of being successful. They put roadblocks in their own path. I have wanted to quite many times and yet what would that have accomplished? Would I be better off? Or would my life be forever changed with the realization that I gave up. How much easier would it be to give up the next time? Would I ever be able to achieve what I want as there is only so much time in this life and if you waste it following this and that and never advancing you will be in the same position never attaining a new level where more doors are open. the same doors will still be closed in your life. I have reached a new level I can now insure that another human being will be successfully free from worrying about basic necessities in there lives. I am not quite finished with my own freedom, but I am still on track for level one by December then finally go on vacation after a year and 2 months straight of this every day 12 hour stuff hopefully don't go buck wild spending money. That will be a choice too. Remember about the stabbing self in back lol I mean do I really need a vacation or did I just convince myself I need one.

Sunday, July 01, 2007

In Louis L'Amour's book The Walking Drum the character says, "It seemed to me that each year one should pause to take stock of himself, to ask: Where am I going? What am I becoming? What do I wish to become? Most people whom I encountered were without purpose, people who had given themselves no goal. The first goal need not be the final one, for a sailing ship sails first by one wind, then another. The point is that it is always going somewhere, proceding toward a final destination."
He also wrote ," Up to a point a man's life is shaped by environment, heredity, and movements and changes in the world about him; then there comes a time when it is within his grasp to shape the clay of his life into the sort of thing he wishes to be. Only the weak blame parents, their race, their times, lack of good fortune, or the quirks of fate. Everyone has it in his power to say, this I am today, that I shall be tomorrow. The wish however must be implemented by deeds."
I mean some of the most true stuff I have ever read. I only pray I keep my job long enough to continue to finish my life goal of being financially independant with my deeds. If not I will continue on this path and see it through till the end no matter what the fuck happens.

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

Halfway Marker

I'm at the halfway point. Kind of a tingely feeling really. I cooked steaks every day on the grill for a week. Life is funny I'm so close to my first goal. I will have achieved what most people automatically think they can't achieve. Anyone that really wants to can do it though I truly believe. Most people I think like to keep life difficult so that they do not feel they beat the game of life. I mean really once I get to the point where I make 4k a month without doing anything. A person with no imagination could probably lose there feeling of being meaningful at that point. If a person stays at the level of paycheck to paycheck life is always a struggle so it is always easy to see what you have to do all the time. You don't have to come up with anything to do. You know you better work or you won't have a place to live or food on the table. If you have enough money coming in to provide more than you need already. Your brain must comprehend the full meaning of freedom. You are able to do anything but what do you choose to do then.


Your option is to save money. All other choices before that are just illusions of choices. After you have the loot all choices will really be choices not decisions made for you based upon consequences of previous decisions not to become paid.

Friday, March 16, 2007


When I get to level 1 I think I will consider myself pretty much a god. The challenge to ahieve it is extraordinary. Level 1 being only a 100k in cash. Still easy as hell to spend it all if you wanted to, but big enough to live free if you were strong enough to go through the saving and self-denial to get there. Probably has to do with the conditions under which I am saving it. The process is not going the way I envisioned from when I was 18 to 21. I saw the media and thought that it would be easy for me to acheive my goals. Get a wife and both work toward becoming financially independant. Only problem was she didn't work so we spent my income on bills and didn't save anything. If she would have worked though and been with the plan we could have both been done working and gone on a permanent vacation by now. The funny part is now that we are seperated she works. Life is some crazy stuff people think and say they want something but there actions prove otherwise. Now I am doing it by myself with no one in charge of my loot but me. All on my shoulders apparently the way it should be. Still on track for being at the beginning of 32 years, and having it. Been down a 100 paths and finally on the right one.

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

Slowly becoming financially free

Dang this is a slow process to freedom. Saving money is like running a treadmill your body gets used to it and it becomes boring. You look for exciting things to do with the money you have saved and the hardest part is keeping your mind from working on other things. Having a woman to talk to helps but then she comes up with things to do with the money too lol