Thursday, October 04, 2007

Close to the first step

October 5th already Can't really believe I almost made it but at the same time when you make a decision to do something you just have to stick with it as Eminem Says "Till I collapse" "even though my collar bones crushed" Just keep going. I just keep reminding myself what I am doing and why I am doing it. I also try to remember what it was like to not have anything. I look at the people around me and try to help them to achieve what they want in life as well. I still see over and over in people the inate ability to backstab themselves. People realize yes it does feel good to just say f it and quit but it only feels good for a second and then it is back to same old same old. It is like you don't need enemies the majority of people seem to be their own worst enemy when it comes to goals of being successful. They put roadblocks in their own path. I have wanted to quite many times and yet what would that have accomplished? Would I be better off? Or would my life be forever changed with the realization that I gave up. How much easier would it be to give up the next time? Would I ever be able to achieve what I want as there is only so much time in this life and if you waste it following this and that and never advancing you will be in the same position never attaining a new level where more doors are open. the same doors will still be closed in your life. I have reached a new level I can now insure that another human being will be successfully free from worrying about basic necessities in there lives. I am not quite finished with my own freedom, but I am still on track for level one by December then finally go on vacation after a year and 2 months straight of this every day 12 hour stuff hopefully don't go buck wild spending money. That will be a choice too. Remember about the stabbing self in back lol I mean do I really need a vacation or did I just convince myself I need one.